SUN IN PISCES
You are the most sympathetic and self-sacrificing of souls. You have a good imagination and good receptivity to others. You have a poetic otherworldliness which can come out in some creative or idealistic channel. You have a deep, emotional understanding of others and a real will to serve. You need to be careful that you aren't so suggestible that you fall into self-pitying and avoidance behavior. Try to develop concentration and discipline without losing your easygoing demeanor. Once you are determined to reach a goal, your faith in life, the universe and yourself can give you the strength of character to renounce anything that gets in the way.
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kumusta naman? i failed two of my exams, accounting and finance. swabe. i was depressed the whole week, no, up to now i'm still depressed. i can't freakin understand why and how that happened. i just can't. i doubted myself. i'm doubting myself.
but thanks to my seniors and my chancellors, Ate Ice most importantly, for reminding me that i would never be delegated responsibility if they didn't trust me. that's the one thing i needed. trust. trust me and believe in me. as long as there are people who do that for me, i guess i'll never quit.
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3 sleep-deprived days.
friday, i finished the freakin report. how did the report go? i came late, good thing i wasn't supposed to discuss anything on the face. i did the Q & A part, which went quite well... until somebody asked a quessie i didn't understand but answered vaguely nonetheless despite my nervous stuttering. i hope it wasn't that obvious.
saturday, first day of the UPCAT. the service was really good. i was assigned at the vanguard station together with brods oz, dino, capa, and lance. everything went so well. i had fun. i really did.
sunday, last day of the UPCAT. i was reassigned to nismed. i wanted to go back to vanguard but orders are orders. nismed was also fun. when i got there, the team was already complete. there was Ate Carol, brods jay, mike, rom, carlo and benj. when ate carol left after the peak hours, we played a game of pusoy dos. i was on a winning streak. but damn, a twist of fate and i lost thrice in a row. that translated to six glasses of water. i downed 3, good thing rom helped me out with the other half.
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thank you tina. let's talk some more. i'm just really happy you're there.
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I dream a world where you understand
I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends?
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
-- you don't see me, josie and the pussycats
there's pain when i think of you. there's pain when i see your name. i hate the way you made me then broke me. i guess i'll forever be this naive, dreamy girl. it's stupid how i always fall for stupid tricks.
logout;.
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