i watched pirates with the familia last sunday at mall of asia. wala lang. i just find it weird because it was the first conscious time i actually dragged people to watch the first ever scheduled showing for the day. there were only like 3, 4 groups inside the cinema and it was sooo very cold i found it hard to concentrate on the film. never mind that though, the film proved to be tougher than the cold.

the flick got me laughing for a whole two hours, what with the fruits barbecue, maliki liki, the catchy lines, and the great stunts. damn. and johnny depp ~ gay and drunk. the character of captain jack sparrow seems to be getting more and more eccentric. and i'm getting more and more in love with him.

on a serious note though, after everything, it appears that only one person is worthy of being called heroic --- will turner. will exudes nothing but this purely noble and honest and patient and loving facet. meanwhile, both elizabeth swann and jack show this selfish side to them, and it's something really painful for me to take since i kinda like their triumvirate thinking that it's bound by pure friendship. it's stupid that jack could easily seduce people. it's stupid that he even seduced liz. plus, maybe i'm wrong in passing this judgment, but i think liz's in fault, too since she finds she has feelings for the captain [i mean, what the hell. who doesn't? but still.] and her way of clearing her conscience is having jack taken by the great beastie.

*sigh*

but it's a wonderful movie nonetheless.

the following lines are those i loved most from the flick:

Jack: William... I shall trade you the compass, if you will help me... [takes the drawing of a key out of his pocket] to find this.

Will: You want me to find this. [indicates the key on the drawing]

Jack: No. You want you to find this. Because the finding of this, finds you incapacitorially finding and/or locating in your discovering the detecting of a way to save your dolly belle ol' what's her face. Savvy?

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Jack: [steps onto the landing] No worries, mates. Tia Dalma and I go way back. Thick as thieves. Nigh inseparable we are. Were. Have been. Before.

Gibbs: I'll watch your back.

Jack: It's me front I'm worried about.

Gibbs: [to Will] Mind the boat.

Will: [to Ragetti] Mind the boat.

Ragetti: [to Pintel] Mind the boat.

Pintel: [to Marty] Mind the boat.

Marty: [to Cotton and his parrot] Mind the boat.

Parrot: [to Cotton] Mind the boat. [and flies off]

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Tia Dalma: You know of Davey Jones, yes? [the crew nods] A man of the sea. A great sailor. Until he run afoul of that which vex all men. [Jack pockets something while no one's looking]

Will: What vexes all men?

Tia Dalma: [she teasingly touches Will's hand] What indeed.

Gibbs: The sea?

Pintel: Sums.

Ragetti: The dichotomy of good and evil. [Gibbs and Pintel give him a look]

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Elizabeth: Honor and decency and a moral center. That's not -- (??)

Jack: Trifles. You will come over to my side, I know it.

Elizabeth: You seem very certain.

Jack: One word, love: curiosity. You long for freedom. You long to do what you want to do because you want it. To act on selfish impulse. You want to see what it's like. One day... you won't be able to resist.

Elizabeth: Why doesn't your compass work?

Jack: My compass works fine.

Elizabeth: Because you and I are alike. And there will come a moment when you have a chance to show it. To do the right thing.

Jack: I love those moments. I like to wave at them as they pass by.

Elizabeth: You'll have the chance to do something... something courageous. And when you, you'll discover something. That you're a good man.

Jack: All evidence to the contrary.

Elizabeth: [laughs] No, I have faith in you. You want to know why?

Jack: Do tell, dearie.

Elizabeth: [leans in close with each sentence] Curiosity. You're going to want it - a chance to be admired - and gain the rewards that follow. You won't be able to resist. You're going to want to know what it tastes like.

Jack: I do want to know what it tastes like.

Elizabeth: [Jack caresses her cheek] But seeing as you're a good man, I know that you'd never put me in a position that would compromise my honor. [Jack is ready to kiss her when he sees the black mark return to the palm of his hand and snatches his hand away] I'm proud of you, Jack.

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Norrington: [Jack is disarmed; to Will] Do excuse me while I kill the man who ruined my life.

Will: Be my guest.

Jack: Let us examine that claim for a moment, former Commodore, shall we? Who was it that at the very moment you had a notorious pirate safely behind bars saw fit to free the said pirate and take your dearly beloved all to hisself... aye? So whose fault is it really that you've ended up a rum-pot deckhand what takes orders from pirates?

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Jack: [pushes Gibbs out of the way] I'll handle this, mate. Oi, fish face! [holds up his jar of dirt] Lose something, aye? -- ?? [loses footing and falls a short way down the stairs with his dirt; the whole crew 'ooh's' and cringes in sympathy at his fall; holds up the jar again] Got it! Come to negotiate, eh, have you, you slimy git. Look what I got. [in a sing song voice] I've got a jar of di-irt, I've got a jar of di-irt, and guess what's inside it?

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Gibbs: [to Will] There's only half a dozen kegs of powder.

Will: Then load the rum! [everyone get very quiet and stares at Will]

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www.youtube.com is a wonderful creation! wahahah! i've known of its existence for a while now but i didn't really expect such goodies! imagine! parakiss anime episodes! naruto episodes [193's uploaded, 194's the latest release... not bad~]! my girl episodes! they even have meteor garden! what more can i ask for? [oh, they don't have pirates. *sigh*] they don't even eat up my disk space because i could just watch 'em without downloading. and since i'm on rather fast connection, i don't wait much. what luck! what bliss! wehehehe!

oh. i've watched nana the movie... it's sooo wonderful! i'm sooo in love with both nanas. and i think i'm a step from obsession with mika nakashima. i've been singing the ost, glamorous sky, mika's version. i even dled the mp3. what a shame there's this ripway error. damn. i wanted to make it my bground sound.

[solemn pause. *wonders when ai yazawa would release chapter 60*]

be patient with this girl. she's just enjoying herself. after all, she deserves a treat because she got through that first accounting exam. :D

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i didn't go to school today. aside from the fact that i had only one class and it's the 530-7, i also wasn't feeling very well. c'mon. i needed sleep. and i'm having tummy aches again.

i'm so sorry GLC! i really wanted to be with you. i miss you!

so sorry finance groupmates! i know i set that case discussion.. but i did upload my case draft in our e-group.

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at the back of our car is attached a sign that reads, "CAUTION: Student Driver". creepy. tomorrow's the day, right? edsa, meet your worst nightmare -- me!

*evil laugh*

last sunday, i with the familia, went to the araneta coliseum to watch the last three games of the mvp cup 2. [yeah, celebrating hannah's birthday! now you know i'm actually a busy person. hehe.] the first match was the mixed doubles, asia represented by siblings kennie and kennevic asuncion against, erm, the european representatives. [so sorry, can't remember their names. didn't mean to be rude.] although they lost, it was still a heck of a game. and you'd have to lose sometimes, right? guess that was just that.

next thing was the women's singles. i didn't enjoy it much. the players were good, as expected. asian representative is world's rank 2 [now it's evident that i'm sooo not good with names and i'm sooo not hyped to look 'em up, at least at the mo], i think she's chinese.. or taiwanese.. or something.. weird thing is, even the european representative had asian blood. yao.. ms. yao.. there. of course i was biased towards asia, and i thought she was really gonna win, with the credentials and all that shat. but the losing streak went on -- europe won again.

the last match was the one i really fell for. it was the best match of the whole cup [oryt, maybe not the whole cup since i watched only 3 games out of 9, but for that day at least it was]. wahahahahaha! johansen [not sure bout the spelling] vs. lin dan! lin dan ranked 4th the world over, while johansen had a string of won conquests tied to his name. i swear those two are not human! i don't even see them moving their rackets and yet the feather flies from one side to the other then back again. [thank you for bearing with the exaggeration] but really... dan is uber cool. johansen lost his temper when he sorta slipped and failed to return the bird to dan. then he started protesting bout the mats being sabotaged or something. he got warnings for misconduct. all the while, dan just waited patiently, pacing innocently about his side of the net for the fired up european to quit ranting. dan won the first set, johansen got the second but alas, dan kicked ass by bagging the match with an uberly exciting third set! whew.

lin dan is the man!

yours truly would like to apologize if this entry is just a thoughtless waste of words. she hasn't slept for the past 25 hours now, and her brain isn't quite in the right state.

that's that!

now for some winks... i'm sooo gone.

That's exactly how it used to be for us, wouldn't you agree? At first I couldn't understand why I became so attached to the story but now that I've gotten out for a better view, I think it's because it made me realize what we were and what I really felt about you.

You were the strong, independent type who knew what she wanted and I was the weak, naive character who always relied on you, depended on you to take care of me. We were Nana and Hachi, you and me. I felt betrayed by you, the same way I felt betrayed when I was deserted by my closest friend back before I met you. I felt that you never really cared about me, that this friendship never meant anything to you since you were able to forget so easily. My self-esteem sank and I started thinking that I would never be able to satisfy you, that my weakness and stupidity are annoying. Is that how you really feel about me? Someone who's just a memory? You have to tell me if it is so. I can't have my heart broken all the time.

I love you. Yeah, so much that it kept me paranoid all those long weeks that I haven't heard from you. No, it's not the love from my suspicious bisexual tendencies. It's the love from what I hope is our friendship. I love you to a point that I would do anything to keep you at my side. I love you to a point that I would let you do what you want to do, even if I'm nowhere in it. I'm sorry if I needed to say this, it's just that if I don't, I think I'll go mad. Don't worry, this as far as it goes.

Are we over, Nana?

I hope not... because I'd always want to be your Hachi.

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I don't want to hear about him anymore. He's turned into a taboo, just like all the others who came before, because his name alone can make me feel sad. Thank you, but I don't need to know that you saw him, that he did not forget you and he greeted you, and that he was with a potential girlfriend, no matter how very ugly she looked. I don't need to know everything about him. I am not a sucker for these kinds of updates.

Maybe it's just because I'm in too deep the melodramatic shit. Maybe it's just because I'm fatally stupid and totally sensitive. I don't care. I'm depressed. He depresses me a lot.

*sigh*

But soon I'll be happy. I'll smile, maybe even laugh; I'll continue to hope for someone better, maybe even continue dreaming of fairy tales; I'll get on with this life, maybe even live it like I've always been okay.

As for now, let me cry. As for now, excuse these sad eyes welling with tears, endure these seemingly endless rants about him, sympathize with this irritable little girl in agony. As for now, just hold me until I forget.

Nothing compares
To the squeaking of your bed springs
Not the triumph in his voice
When he said he'll take you from me
Not the slamming of your door
As he pulled you into your rooms
Not the protests you gave
Before he took you forcefully
Not the breaking of our paired glasses
That I caused but couldn't remember
Not even the sobs that came from my heart
Because I knew I couldn't do anything
No, nothing could ever beat that
The squeaking of your bed springs alone
Tell me your pain
That is enough
To torment me
And cause my miserable death.


***inspired by blast's nana

i'm reading ai yazawa's nana right now (i can imagine linda with knitted brows, pouting in envy). okay, i know i've become such a manga addict in such a short span of time but i can't help it. everything's just so good, got me hook, line and sinker. my eyes are already hurting like hell and my head is spinning. must be the effect of reading from the mech for six straight hours. oh, that's that.

finally! finally! someone in the manga actually gets preggy! that's the only criticism i've got and now it's gone. hehe... people shag here and there but the baby doesn't happen. i'm not saying i'm glad because it did, it's just that, thankfully, it hasn't strayed away from reality.

ah, i can't do this any longer. i'll do a decent post when i get the mood and the time. for now, i gotta go back to my reading.

i was sick since thursday night. i still feel sick.

i abhorred the way other people overdid things. how ironic. it's the same reason why i became sick.

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ai yazawa, you just make me love you. i hate you for making me cry everytime.