i don't know what to say. this is the first time i'm creating a blog entry with nothing really specific coming to mind. i wanna rant about so many things i don't know what to say first.
okay. so let's just start it off with what i'm doing right now. i'm bumming about. i'm taking a little time off the hectic schedule i'm drowning in. it's 549a, the rest of the household will be leaving in more or less ten minutes. i shall be waiting here till i get the groove to go to school since my classes start 10a. i'm listening to jewel crooning 'break me' and i'm hibernating to the sentimental core of me.
what am i feeling right now? i'm exhausted beyond exhaustion, scared, lonely, hopeful, needful of a savior. i just want to cry. i believe it's the best way to let out all the stress. someone help me cry. damn. i'm so dependent. i can't even cry on my own. someone save me. someone save me from myself.
i have to get a grip on myself even if, at the time being, i'm immersed in a delusional state and am satisfied with the quasi-peace i'm getting from it. there are so many things that i have to do. i'm not even going to complain about them. it's just that i really need someone, something that i could hold on to. anyone or anything to believe in just so i could walk on and do what i'm being held responsible for.
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you could hurt me using the sharp edge of what you say.- break me, jewel
please don't call me insensitive. please don't do that. please don't do that ever again.
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kudos to jem for a successful acle! i love you inaanak!
kudos to team k for completing the first task of the internship! 3 more to go!
kudos to rizza for coming in late and with the oblicon girls! pa-autograph!
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kudos to me for being conceited. kudos to me for being irresponsible. kudos to me for being overly lackadaisical. kudos to me for being sick. kudos to me for thinking too much it hurts.
kudos to me for being so guilty i can't even look you in the eye. what do i do about you? you torment me.
logout;.
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