there are reasons to be extremely happy and reasons to be extremely troubled. and as always, they come in a package. trust me, laugh so hard now and the next moment you know you'll be crying or really depressed. it's kinda cynical/nega to say that you shouldn't laugh out or express too much gaiety if you wanna prevent sad stops, but hey, when you come to think of it, life is too short to not giggle and not wail-- and it'll be a lot more worth livin if you get a taste of everything and see how very human you can get.
one thing i'm really happy about: theater. i got the role! hahahaha! i got the role i wanted! but it'll have to remain the class's little secret 'til the staging. we're reading lines now, practicin how to say stuff and all. i think the committees are a little dormant for the moment, but soon enough, with denise, and saerom, and gn chasin their asses, we'll see some results.
update: nica's theater guild will also stage last order sa penguin by chris martinez in march. we're on some sorta competition for market. heehee.
my, my! we saw geegee at waterina, and welcome to intelstar last last week. really kewl. eugene domingo is awesome! i didn't know she's that good. and the gay play was real funny, too. all the while i was thinkin, jack should've been here, she'd love this. btw, chris martinez directed intelstar. we talked to him and got his okay for penguin.
plans: we're watching pinoy wannabes by PETA on thursday evening. we're planning to watch zsa zsa zaturnnah on the 19th. saerom also posted re: viktor frakenstein. jenny wants to watch romeo and juliet at AFP theater. if i do all that, i'll run out of dough.
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this is deirdre's last week, hopefully. give everything.
it's not exactly makin her unhappy; in fact, it excites her. but sometimes the pressure is so very strong she has to put other stuff aside just to keep in pace. she'll do what she can. so help her God.
consolation. she's not the only one in that situation. there are many others out there who are going through so much more than what she is 'sufferin' now. she finds they're all the same, just apart, so she's made up her mind that she'll not think she's alone.
what's disturbing though is she hasn't cried a single tear. it feels great to cry because you get to release all the stress. but no. lacrimal glands are dry. why? pain not enough? fear not enough? why that worry, tension and all but no physical burst of emotion?
she knows she wants it. she listens. miss sofia says time just passes. third week on wednesday. after that everything's gonna be fine. back to life without terror but more reason to live.
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my mum's sick. pray for her pls.
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