i've been wasted for the last few days. imagine this: for a whole week, you get to sleep at 11p, then you have to be up again by 3a to do whatever pending work's keepin you from sweet slumber. then last friday, i only slept for 3 (?) hours, i didnt get to review at all for the two long exams, and that's it.
for the first time, i'm actually scared. i'm not doin good academically. not. i failed the first accounting exam which is supposed to be the easiest long exam in the series. i'm lost. i dunno what to do. i did study, i'm pretty sure of that. but, okay, i didn't study consciously. i just can't find the drive. and yesterday, i lost 20+ points in the infotec midterms. i'm so ruined. and econ, too. some 20+ points lost. damn. i wanna cry. ngawa, in harlene's terms.
the only subject i think i'm actually achieving in is theater. theater has been my home, my sanctuary, my refuge in this sem. once i thought it's lost to me, too. i thought it has been invaded by something that's pushing me to the edge and it'll never be the same as before, but now things have cleared up, i find it as good as ever.
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dyna, she scares me. but we've given it time, haven't we? besides, we're in too deep. leaving was not an option and it never will be. just stay with me. stick with me through the end. i'm sure miss antha and miss mace will help us. they have been. they always will. my miss antha will not desert me. i trust in her. the family does not know. i dont intend to tell. not till it's over.
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i miss wisdom. ive been readin the testimonials at friendster and i just really freakin miss wisdom.
matagal pa ba bago mag-reunion?
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