Pandemonium Stirs Within You: {c://.handsUP}

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The sound of the engine getting further away...
The feel of the hard passenger seat...
The heavy scent of cologne...
His warm body...
His cold fingertips...
His strong gaze...
His voice...
His sweet and low voice... calling my name.
Even without him... this city is still overflowing with people.
My days are busy.
Nothing will change.
All I did was lose a love...
I'm all right.
But... why do the lights look like they're in black-and-white?
Just because one person isn't here...
-Paradise Kiss, Ai Yazawa

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an october day

it's been a long time since i've gotten myself into an obssession.

there's this guy. the moment i wake up --- that is before fixin my hair, gargling, and taking a trip to the toilet --- i connect to the net and check out his blog, drool over it, stare at his photo, read his posts for the nth time, and allow myself to become stupid. when the trance finally lapses, i get through my daily routine that includes 2 more glances at his page. (sigh) (you say: give me the damn url and i'll see for myself.. i say: dream! he aint in my links page so find a fantasy of your own. hehe :p)

okay, so what's so hot/cool about him? aside from bein good-lookin and sporty, apparently rich, and smart and intellectual, there's hardly anythin else coz i dont really know him (and i dont really know why i'm puttin so much effort in writing this entry) but i think i do know him because his entries strip him down (in a figurative manner, that is). he's just different coz i haven't really met (yes, we've met though i aint worth his attention) a straight, macho guy who can write without being branded gay or scholarly but instead you see as the guy, this guy.

enough.

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the only consolation about gettin bored during school breaks is that you're not the only one. posts from the deetoo e-group somehow make me feel better, i.e., knowing micha gets to do nothin but bum, and cams and jons, too. at least pol's busy and is devotin his time to poetry and play, chie is developin his blog and is 'on-call' for jpia, niña is... i haff no idea, ash is enjoying in ilocos, and the others maybe passin their time in worthwhile ventures. i miss them awredi! i havent been able to be with 'em during the most recent gigs. (sigh)

i'm wonderin how my hs buddies are doin. several of them (take jenny and maidu) i bug everyday --- thankies to them because they take time to entertain my petty rantings. others i seldom get wind of coz either there's no channel or i havent got the energy to check it out. good thing we've a movie marathon this friday (hooray!), venue's still aint fixed but i'm hopin like i've never hoped it'll push through. tomorrow i'm expectin gem and jack. we're watchin shutter here at me place. i'll try to fix the place up before they come and at the same time do the chores pa's asked me to finish. good luck to me.

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acads.

ba -- real bad. need 6% from the homeworks, participation, exercises part to get a 2.5. waaah.

econ -- unofficial grade of 1.5 adjusted to 1.75. not bad, i guess.

stat -- i haff no idea! i think i failed le3. goddam open notes exam. im not sure bout a single thing i scribbled on the answer sheet.

pp -- my final's a wreck. what i could've done in a week, i finished in less than an hour. i am soooo delinquent.

geog -- 2 out of 4 les are okay. wonder bout the other 2. lowest possible grade is a 2. this is my only hope to gettin a cs gwa.

cw -- not confident bout my revised cnf but it's a lot better than my original. maybe she can be more considerate. maybe. 'specially because this is our subject.

judo -- got a 1.75 and lost 6 lbs! i'm a whoppin success! yipee!

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i've tried to change my skin. i modified the codes of the one i liked best and i did that for hours. when i viewed it with frontpage, i got it positive. however, when i copied it to my template, all i could see was a black screen and the incomplete white text 'demonium stirs within you.' waah! i'm frustrated. somebody help me. i've sent it to maidu and asked her to see what might be wrong.

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