im being abnormal. last monday after the econ lec i suddenly felt sad, out of tune. it was hard because i didn't know why. i told malin i felt like a wind was blowin' in my head, like everthing just went wrong and even if i was trying to be all smiles and was really creating effort into cheerfulness, i couldn't get into it. the mood seems to have been carried over today and i'm not enjoying it at all.
this is so damn wrong. i don't have the right to feel this way, especially because it make me abnormal. this is unfair to them, to him. i can't feel this way! i can't.
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darkness just claimed title over that stretch of skin under my eyes. i can't help but see myself in the likeness of that girl in the stresstabs ad. we both look dreadful. add the 2-day sickness leave i took since tuesday. i was pukin' all over the place. i dunno. my tummy just felt real bad and then i got fever. it was horrible. there's nothin' left inside and i'm still emptying it. i think i'll be in a critical condition because of it someday.
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