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Sasamahan ka-- akap, imago
kasama. maybe that's just what i need. because i'm human and i'm vulnerable to insecurities and loneliness, i need someone to tell me that i'm ok and everything will be ok; i need someone to tell me everything's just a bad dream and that there's someone who cares who'll wake me up. crappy as it sounds, there's a loneliness in me that screams for attention. i've been trying to cover it up for ages but lately, it kept growing worse. i can't ignore it anymore. but i don't know what to do. i feel restless and beyond help.
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summer's almost over. i want it to end because it bores me. but i don't want it to end because school might just do the same thing. boredom, boredom. activity's the cure but too much of it and i'm back to where i began.
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i went to bulinao, pangasinan last april. it was an enchanting experience, one of the few i felt grateful for for being alive. the sand isn't as fine as bora's but the wind is sweet and relaxing. the area isn't as commercial as galera but the water's warmth washes off lethargy and drives qualms out of your head. it's amazing to know life can still hold so much wonder and beauty when it overflows with suffering and injustice.
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